Dunia Dymar

Apa-apa saja yg terjadi sekarang adalah hasil dari doa-doamu di masa lalu. Coba pikirkan ulang. Apa saja doa-doamu yang dulu? Yang senantiasa kau panjatkan. Merengek kepada Tuhan minta angan-anganmu segera diwujudkan. Semua ingin-inginmu yang tidak pernah terpuaskan itu. Kemudian ketika sudah berada di titik di mana salah satu doamu pada akhirnya didengar, pun tak terucap sepatah kata terima kasih dalam sanubarimu. Tentu saja, hatimu menginginkan hal yg lain. Tak ada syukur apalagi berpuas hati menerima pemberian Ilahi. Keadaanmu saat ini. Serakah! Hati-hati melontar doa kepada penciptamu, salah-salah bisa merugi. Setiap ucapan, baik yang kau pendam dalam hatimu atau kau bagikan kepada telinga-telinga sesamamu, semua itu adalah doa jangka panjang. Asisten Tuhan mencatat, merekap, merekam semua doa-doa itu. Dan ketika waktumu tiba nanti, doa itu akan sampai pada tempatnya. Satu ingin telah tercapai, kau lupa dengan terima kasih. Sebagai gantinya kau hardik Tuh...

Dia berguling menggelinding Seperti trenggiling Sembunyikan diri Dalam bilik rendah diri Rasa tidak percaya diri Barangkali dia m enyadari Sebuah abstraksi Senyawa kontemplasi Resonansi tentang durasi Yang tengah berusaha Yang tengah risau Yang tengah bertahan Tidakkah demikian? Kendatipun tidak, baiklah Tak jadi perkara Namun entahlah Suara hati bukan berhala Masa yang dia habiskan Barangkali menyimpan tanya  Perihal kapan Mengapa dan bagaimana Kaki renta terseok mengejar bahagia Atau perihal apa dan siapa Yang sudi melukis koda Di atas rasa kecewa Dia Adalah Resonansi yang Lenyap Termakan Durasi Kediri, 26 Juli 2019. 11:00 wib dymarmahafa

Suaranya memanggil Suara mungil Parau  Putus asa Tercekik di antara rimba lara Merintih di palung n estapa Serupa sutra hitam terbentang Melilit vena, arteri, bercabang-cabang Sadarnya hilang Pikiran mengambang Barangkali keyakinan dibutakan indra Aku takut menoleh ke utara Tak kuasa netra terjaga Pun tak ingin kupejamkan ia Tak ada guna karena inilah penjara Siang dikurung pekat Malam digandeng malaikat Nanti kujumpa dia di sana Tempat sangkakala berebut nada Bukan esok atau lusa Tidak kala senja masih berduka Biarkan duka puas bertegur sapa Hingga tegar kutatap parasnya Lekat-lekat dari balik jendela Kala fajar membias di ambang cakrawala Dia Adalah Garis Tangan yang Dilukis Untuk Nirwana Kediri, 22 July 2019. 08:51 wib

Song & lyric by: Dymar Mahafa July 20th, 2019 Chords: C - Em - E - Am Intro: (So, human, what do you want in life?) Verse I: You have your whole life, to do what you want You don't have to worry, Do you really care? Don't think too much... Verse II: What if everything, you're going through... is preparing you, for what you asked for? Don't think too much... Bridge: Runaway, go where you belong! Chorus: Run... away.... (Wanna) Run... away... (Wish to) Run... away... (Lemme) Run... away....... Verse III: Someday you're gonna die And no one else care You don't have to worry You will be all right Don't think too much... Chorus: Run... away... (Lemme) Run... away...... Hook: Can you see the wall that you have to break away? If you need to runaway, go ahead and fly away Can you see the door that you need to blow away? C'mon wipe your tears away, never hide yourself anymore Go where you belong!!! Chorus: ...

A lapis lazuli, my eyes full of treasure I was staring at the sky and all I see was azure I breathed with my eyes close But I could not feel the oxygene through my nose A smell of yesterdays or the other days before They haunted me to gain things I wore I put my pride on, while I put my fears off Where all my ambitions should find their way home I set them free, then they flew away, broke away But then, they still grumbled Feeling numb like I don't even know how to cry Why, tho? Crying? What is that for, anyway? World will never let you down if you don't let it be Nor time will let you to be everyone else You decide, anyway Why did you look so pathetic then? Like it was the end of the world Well, you do not have to be sincere and mischievous at the same time Even you can not be cheerful and playful at the same time You're right, you decide, not everyone else People can decide "to do list" in your life But you will never let them to do so, ...

I was just silently woken up Wondering where I should found my self out Instead of waking up I prefer lost my self on those dreams last night What if i never open my eyes anymore? Like I wish they did so Will everybody just leave me alone in my insanity? Perhaps YES, but NO, they will not They will soon join me in it One more and more Even more and more I felt dust was blown away It stuck in my brain You won't let me kill these pain Nor let me to be me once again It's completely mental I can't even have me just to breathe                               No, I don't need more I just need an hour to ignore Please let me in Let me bury these pain Together with my whole body Kediri, July 6th, 2019. 22:32 wib